Ok so..

I'm just going to put my brain on this page so I can kinda get a picture of these scrambled thoughts. Ok! So I don't know whether to stay in Darwin or move back to Christchurch, if I stay here I'm going to continue schoo and my job. maybe try my luck at modelling (I doubt anyone would want me, especially with my weight and height but maybe my hair will get me some work haha) and being an odd extra in a movie every known and then but ultimately go to uni and study fine arts. (along with this, miss everyone and be sad) or in Christchurch, I'll hopefully go to Hagley, get a job, move into my sleep out and avoid contact with my dad as much as possible... Maybe try getting a tattoo apprenticeship? And after school, study fine arts at uni. (maybe not do as well but be with everyone and be happy) Can I just say that I love my mum to bits, last night we went and camped out, watched the stars, smoked and drank vodka. But I just don't feel at home here in Darwin. I have a finalised design I think for the tattoo I want when I go back to NZ in July! Super excited, I have lots of other tattoo ideas too but they can wait. What do I do?